I have been missing for a week, I know. That's because I got hired to work on a set, as a PA and I was working 15 hr days; was left hungry most of the time and was very underpaid and underappreciated. No, I didn't meet any worthwhile contacts. Yes, it was one of the worst experiences I have ever had...
No, this wasn't my first time.
Listen, I have done so much crap work until I got to this point - even until I got into my grad school, that I feel I have paid my dues. ALL of them. I earned my place, a higher place that I have been getting hired for. It is true! People who graduated the year I did, from college, didn't end up starting as low as I did. And while those people are getting paid a nice sums now (they have that "at least 3-5 year assistant experience" every job asks for) , I am wondering when my next pay check is going to come...
Is it my fault? Well, not really. Am I going to whine about how unfair it has been? Nope.
All this has been a combination of lack of opportunities on my way throughout years. I have also short-sold myself. I have been easy to take-advantage-off, because I was okay with free work for waaaaay too long. I love work, so instead of setting a standard for myself, I took anything.
All that has been a mistake.
But I woke up, so that's what's important.
All these negative things about my career taught me a one- big lesson. I came to a realization: I have the power to create/generate my own work. At the end, that's what matters to me. I need the money, but in the long term, I don't need to wait for anyone to hire and pay me.
This doesn't mean I am going to stop taking these short-term crappy jobs! I will take them, because you never know what positive thing might come out of them.
But while looking for a long-term stable job, I will not go insane and upset. I will create a game-plan of my own future.
And who knows, may be I will be successful at it sooner than I thought!
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