There has been three occasions in my temp assignments so far, where people showed some reaction to the fact that I have a master's degree- the highest level of education I can get in my field. The reactions were along the lines of, "you've got a master's and you're doing this?"
I have been feeling exactly that way - obviously- and have been complaining about it. But still, I couldn't stop taking those jobs. You've been my witness!
But recently, I think I have turned it all around. I declined work, because I have been "unavailable."
It is the truth! Instead of dead-end jobs, I have been working on the list of things I have been meaning to do ( especially during my master's) but I hadn't gotten a chance to. I am now catching up on all the books I wanted to read, all the films I wanted to see and other things I wanted to put on paper. And for a moment there I wondered, who really spends days reading and watching films and call it work? After all, you can work a real job (ie: reception) AND read or watch movies when you get home, right? Wrong!
At this time, I realize it truly was a waste of time to work for the minimum wage. I have been so emotionally drained, doing all sorts of crap work, that all I'd do when I came home was eat and go to bed. May be, I'd check my emails, if I felt up to it.
Now, I feel I have more time to spend. I have more energy. I am more positive. Probably because I no longer commute, or answer phones. Suprisingly, I haven't gotten bored (yet) - considering my personality, I could have. I keep my eye on the prize: my satisfaction with the limited time (limited, because I hope to eventually get a job) that I have free.
I have been worrying though: does that make me lazy? For a couple days, I thought so. Then, I started a notebook where I listed all that I have accomplished for the day. It has been a whole a lot. And now, I don't think, not working a lame gig makes me lazy. I am not making that 5 bucks an hour (after taxes) but I am investing that time for my future. And I think that is one of the greatest satisfaction one can have in life.
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