I know, I have been slacking in terms of blogging but I have been working!! Actually, I took 4 days of work this week. Of course, I only made enough for may be 3.
This week, as usual, I took some crappy work, but I did it because apparently the company that gives me that lame-work, likes the way I do their lame-work. And I stopped caring about what I do on daily basis, because I officially upgraded my thinking habits; adjusted some of my life expectations and I was no longer unhappy. I sort of "raised above," if you know what I mean.
All I had to do was to stop trying to go against the current! Yes, I lowered my expectations and all I cared about work was how fast I did the lame-work or how pretty it looked at the end. Nothing else. I didn't remotely care what people think of me or how they spoke to me or anything... And that felt good.
I also did some background work. At that time, I came to a major realization that I love working long hours on sets. I do. At the end, I was physically exhausted, but happy and satisfied. I met about 4 to 5 people with whom I carried an average of 2 hr-long conversations, most of which was pretty interesting. A total success, in terms of socializing!
So, at the end of the week, I started considering background work a little more seriously. I don't like appearing on TV or movies, but I find I belong there better than I do in an office.
Next week, I am looking to take the whole week off from work. I need to focus on my wants, needs, wishes; work a little more on my plans for the future and perhaps, sketch-out a new work pattern so I don't feel so exhausted of frustration.
One of the most important New Year's resolutions I made this year was to "simplify my life." In December, I figured there was just too many things going on in my life to remain healthy and sane. It is now May. I don't think I did a good job so far. But from now on, I am going to work harder at it. And here's to the new beginning!
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